okay... i know that this is like my 5th post in like 3 days, but i have a lot to say... I cut again tonight in the shower, because i was freaked... When i was talking to Jeff last night, he had a "vision" of sorts, and saw my funeral... and my tombstone was dated 2008... i'm scared, but i don't know if it will come true...
Who the hell am i kidding... Of course it will... Every time Jeff has had one of these things, about me, or people i know, they've always come true... i'm scared, and i don't know what else to say, other than; Peter, if you're reading this, I'm scared, and want to see you again... before '07 runs out... and possibly my time...
I'm going to start living my life, and not taking any chances with messing things up with relationships... I'm going to stay single, but not see anyone but the 2 guys that i love, and that (hopefully still) love me. In January first, i'm going to start becoming very wary of what i'm doing... I want to live to get married, or at least have Sex... but if i don't, i don't want to have any other regrets other than picking the guy for me...
What Jeff said really got to me, and i think that he saw that in my eyes today during rehersal... I was upset, and I really tried to just keep on working, and to get the cuts from the play into my book so that i could read the people their right lines next weekend... that is if we have the show...
I guess that's all i have to say... I hope that i don't go into a deep depression, and start cutting really badly...
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