Dear God... A7X Style

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again


OK... i lied about that being the last post that i was directing towards you... I was listening to my A7X artist play list and this song popped up... I couldn't help but think about what you've gone through, and how this song is totally your anthem... when you're feeling sad, and missing Ash... it made me think that because it made me think of my dad... I actually started to cry... It just really made me want to take a step back and see all of the pain that I've caused in my life to other people, and i realized that you were the person that I've seemed to hurt the most... Even though every time i said that I'd never hurt you again, i seemed to fuck every time and hurt you time after time... I guess i just wanted to get things back to the way they were the first time we dated, but with every positive step i took, i took 5 negative steps back... I guess that if i had left things how they were this year, we would've eventually become friends again, but i totally fucked up any chance of that happening... I can't get it out of my head because it's all my fault... I'm sorry... i hurt you... and I've 'punished' myself... literally and figuratively... I'm sorry i ever thought that everything cold be like it was before everything went wrong... but something went right... I NEVER meant to hurt you... i was just really confused... and in need of some drama... which i got on and off-stage...

I'm sorry... I'll never bother you again... except for a glance at you when you don't think i'm looking... whatever... you didn't read this anyway probably...

~Baby