I will wait until the end
When the pendulum will swing back
to the darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
next to me like its a grave
where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all

So here I am pacing around this house again
With pictures of us living on these walls
I see my breath in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm wondering
I'm wondering if its you that i feel if its you that i feel here haunting me forever

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all

and I'm not looking for
anything but us
anything but what we were
and I'm not asking for
painted memories
I only want to know you're here

A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find theres no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find theres no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all.


ugh... it's the only thing that I really care about any more
I was high earlier, and now I'm crashing
I've had that song in my head all day.. and i just heard it on Last.fm...
I had a lot of thoughts today while i was high...
I just kept on thinking about how Jeff has been there for me all the time, and knowing that I made a mistake ruining his trust... I'm not saying that i want to get back together with him... i just wish that I'd never hurt him... and I'm really missing my dad... I just really don't know where to turn to any more... i think i might call Matt in a little bit... if Jeff doesn't e-mail me back... anyway... i just really needed to get that off my chest... and my thoughts about Jeff and I getting high, and hooking up... i know that i told myself that it wouldn't happen... but i'm not so sure now...