i'm scared... i think Jeff might've committed suicide tonight... he sent me an e-mail that said to check his blog, which i've bookmarked, and so i see it, read it, and it ways that he's going on a walk tonight, and that he might not come home alive tonight... I'm really scared, and i have no idea how to get a hold of him, and i'm just really scared for him... i don't want him to die... I do still care about him, but he doesn't want to have anything to do with me... i'm so fucking scared that he's not going to come to skool tomorrow, and then i'll know that he's not here... because i've called him twice, and left him 2 text messages, and he still hasn't gotten back to me... i don't know what to do... I"m shaking with every time that i look at my gmail inbox and i don't see that he's e-mailed me back... i'm gonna be freaking till i see him tomorrow... if not... i don't know what i'm gonna do...