Something Real

OK... I've been posting a lot of song lyrics.. and i just want people to know that i wrote those songs a while ago... my most recent stuff is stuff that i haven't posted yet... so none of my problems are in those songs... well... they are... but it's not on purpose... anyway... i still am checking Jeff's blog daily, and so I'm just hoping that he's doing the same with me... because as much as I'm gonna try and block him out of my life... i still care, and will always check his blog... I doubt that he's reading this... so i don't know why i even try... i mean i tried to be his friend again... and i thought that we were headed on that track, but then he goes with that "needing time to think" and then starts completely ignoring me... and i just can't stand it... so I'm doing something new... with every picture that i print and put in his locker, I'm going to leave a bit of my feelings for him with it... It'll take while... but it's the only way that i can think of to get him out of my system... I'm like an addict... i need to detox... but slowly so i don't end up hurting myself... i guess that's all... i thought i'd post something real... something other than lyrics... something other than crap...