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I can't stand the pain that i know that you're going through... you're where i was a few years ago... but i didn't know about the torture that i could've put myself through to get rid of the pain like you know about.... and like i know about now... I'm sorry about your headache, and that you think that you have discrased her... and her memory... but i think that she'd be happy with the fact that you're dealing with your pain... i wish that you hadn't burned it... i would've kept it till you wanted it back... cuz some of that stuff was REALLY good... i guess i'll never hear it now... whatever... i don't even think that you're still reading this... i just really can't stand that you're blocking me out, and all i really wanted to do was try and help you... i know what you're going through... because you let me in... i'm glad that you did... and i'm sorry if you're regretting it now... I DO care about you... but i just don't know how to show/tell you any other way... because you don't wanna have anything to do with me... i know that not everything's about me... but you really can't have your depression consume you... i know that you've probably heard all of this before, but i feel that it needs to stilll be said again... I'm sorr about how you've gotten dealt a crap hand... but you've gotta play the game through... please don't just fold and escape... I'm sorry... i don't know what else to say... I'm so sorry... i just wanna be your friend again... i hate you hating me... but i guess It's "my fault" like everything is... and yes... you can blame me for everything... even why there is no oxygen in space... I'm sorry... i fucked up... but i'm trying to fix it... don't you see that!?

~Baby