IDIOT!

i feel like such an idiot... Jeff and i talked all day... and i blew off Matt... not on purpose, but i did... anyway... after talking to Matt on the phone around 5:15... my night got a little worse because he was being an insensitive ass... anyway... after telling Jeff... and him making me feel better, and telling Matt that i didn't want to talk to him any more tonight because he had a bad day, and was taking it out on me... anyway... after Jeff made me feel better... and he gets off for the night, he goes onto his blog, and wrote out the story of Cain and Abel... at the end of it... he wrote that he didn't care about me, and that he didn't want anything to do with me again... so... i texted him... and we got into this "fight" and he said that because he didn't want to make things worse, but now he sees that he doesn't give a fuck about me... then i told him that he made my day go nicely, and he turns around and gives me the "taking candy from a baby" bit... and says that he won't reply to any of my texts, or anything... so i don't know where we're going to be in a few weeks... but Matt's right... we're being like a yoyo... going up and down with our Talking/not talking modes... i guess that i really just can't do this anymore...