What's going on...

What's going on with me? What's going on in my life that makes me text Him in a desperate attempt to try and get everything straightened out. Why can't I know what's the matter, yet I know in the pit of my stomach that something... no... Everything is going wrong... I feel like I'm losing control over my life... and it makes me feel horrid... I hate it when I can't take control and make everything better. I just want to curl up into a little ball, or drive off into the night, and forget about every single bad thing that's going on in my life... I just hate this... if i keep typing... i'm just gonna end up repeating the same stuff again and again... so... i just feel like i'm out of control and i want to just get out of all of my trouble...