Love/compatbility

I took it to be sure... (because i was already sure of it... i just wanted to see if a stupid calculator online could tell if we were perfect together...)

ok... so... for the past few days... i feel like i've been "haunted"... or at least been "watched over" by 2 people... one of which i'm planning on spending the rest of my life with, and the other, who i have never met, but... is a great part of my life already.

I don't mean that i'm feeling like someone's ghost is following me... i just feel like she's protecting me, and... giving me strength to get through this past 3 weeks. It's been strangely comforting to feel Ash and my dad there... but... it's also been very scary... because... i want to believe that they're there... i want to believe it sooo bad... but... I just can't believe that they're there, or that they're sooo close to me with being sooo far away.

That's another thing... Ever since Kare came home... it seems like every time that we try to have a serious conversation it turns into a fight... i'm just REALLY not sure where to go from here... I Love Him more than anything in this world, but... when it comes to us talking about stuff like who i've been talking to, or stuff that i should do... I know that he understands... i just... wish that i could respect his wishes a little more... i wish that it was easier for me to... but... I'm just not sure how this is going to be tomorrow... when we go back to school... and everyone is stopping us to say "HI" to Kare...

I'm just sooo completely lost without him by my side... and... this past month... has been sooo hard for me without him there, without being able to read him... because... knowing how he is, and how he feels... that makes me feel better... just knowing that i can tell if he's feeling good, bad, or if he's totally blocking everyone out... i don't care what he's feeling... just... knowing that i know what he's feeling makes me feel better... i know... i'm rambling, and i'm not making any sense... but... I'm trying... i'm trying to be good... and nothing bad has happened that i didn't tell him about... so... i guess i'd better stop before my head starts to hurt... I'll talk to you at rehearsal... because i'm gonna get there a little early anyway... (like around 1:45)... so... ya... and... if we want to tell her our big news today... so be it... but... if we don't... we can just wait till the right time...

I Love You Kare Bear, more than i've ever loved anyone, anything, or anybody... (i know that the 1st and 3rd are the same... i just had to say it in 3's)...