screw Up

I feel like i'm not able to do anything right at all these days. I wish that I could not upset Jeff anymore... i want to be such a better person/girlfriend/student. I can't help felling that no matter what i do these days i'm always messing up, or pissing someone off... especially Jeff... It seems like everything that i do always pisses Jeff of, or i feel horrible about after i do it. I know that i should be eating and stuff, but after i do, i feel like crap. Whenever i do anything, it always seems to come back to bite me in the ass... might this be from going off of all of my meds??... because i haven't really gotten any sleep in the past 2 weeks either... i mean... i know that i've been getting at least 6 hours a night... about... but it still doesn't feel like anything... and don't anyone say anything about me going to bed earlier, because i've tried. I've tried to go to bed at 8, but still don't fall asleep till around 10 or 11. it's always going to get better... some time... but i'm just not sure when that will be.