another update on my non-existant life

ok... well... that friend who i was ranting about at the end of my last post, she apologized, and Jeff and i broke up again because "i've changed too much." but... it's been over a month now since he broke up with me the 1st time, and so i'm not crushed. probably because i know that i can live without him, and i don't have to be with him. i've done a lot of thinking about him, but i've found that the past few days, i haven't been able to stop thinking about someone else. it's been so different. but really nice. i'm not trying to be someone else. i'm just being the me that i'm liking to be now. i like how i'm not having to walk on eggshells every day.