S.O.S.

Wow... just had a major freak-out...

Before that I was writing in my journal about how I don't like to be weak...

I've been writing in a journal instead of blogging because my ex was reading this, but I'm pretty sure he is done stalking me, so I'm writing on here to talk about other things that I don't write about in my journal, or about the same things, just after I've put my journal away.

SO... I guess the reason I'm writing now is because I just had a major freak out that started with me writing and ended with me having a slight panic attack with lots to cutting with my trusted safety pin...

I really wish that I was over that, but I guess I'm really not. I've been writing a lot about how I like being miserable... and I'm not sure what it all really means, but I know that Jay makes me "happy"/not think about that as much, so I'm going to stay with him for now to see how things go. I think that they'll turn out really good, I just need to get over my stupid shit...

I just Had to write it out... Not Traz and Bed...